Sahara

If you took a superficial glance at my life for the past 11 months as an outsider, you would not think that I have been going through a “divorce.” I have honestly been pretty happy, surprisingly. I’ve been able to find a renewed sense of spirituality and have had almost daily oracles and moments of synchronicity that have reminded me of the abundance of love that is available to me despite my circumstances.

Of course, I have had my dark moments and days of sadness, and I’ve been afraid at times because the future is not clear to me right now. In this past month, I have had a lot more days comprised of dealing with difficult and uncomfortable emotions than the light and expansive ones I was enjoying earlier in the year.

I made a commitment to post once a week, and so here I am. It’s motivating to write about joy and wonder. And I re-experience it in the telling. Not as enjoyable to describe feeling shut down and wandering around in the Sahara a little scorched and parched. At least I am not in the depressed zone I was two weeks ago, thankfully.

It’s worth writing about though because as humans we deal with all emotional states, and it is in sorrow that we know the full experience of happiness, through anger that we appreciate being at peace. As Deepak Chopra writes in his book, Creating Affluence, “…life is the co-existence of all opposite values.”  He goes on to say, “All experience is by contrast, and one would be meaningless without the other.” 

When I’m contending with somber feelings, it helps to remember that there is a spectrum and that it won’t always be this hard.  

NN